It's time to say Goodbye to all of you, my family members, my friends and my love. A Goodbye for three months, because i'm going to Sabah for my National Service. 3 months, not long and not short. I'm having a weird feeling the whole day, keep quiet for the whole day, just weird. I don't know why, i'm always like this, whenever i have to go a place which is quite far without Daddy and Mommy, i will have this kind of feeling, weird. Maybe i can't live without Dad and Mom for a long time, but i guess this will be a good chance for me to learn to be independent, try to live alone. May be a good experience. :-) but i considered myself lucky because my Auntie is there, and she will bring me out during weekend or holiday, not everyweek of course, maybe twice a months or something, i don't know, depends.
Still don't feel really good, hopefully my tears won't drop tomorrow. :-)

Let's see what i brought there. ^^


banana boat - sun block ( this is important to me, because i'm so tanned after my trip, and i don't wanna be like a charcoal. )

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It's 2010, do you realize that time pass super fast ? Yea, it is. Today is 1/1/2010. The very first day of 2010, shall we make a wish on the very special day ? Put this aside first, okay. Let me talk about my new year eve, 30/12/2009. Th very last day of the year 2009, well. I bet some of you went out to celebrate or count down, and it's totally fun ! But for me, no, i did not go out to celebrate and for your information, i celebrate at home, counting down at home and do my own thing at home, but...i still had fun ! This new year eve is a great day for me. My day is fully occupied by 'you', Westlife, Robert Pattinson and Eclipse, my very new story book.

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Merry Christmas everyone. Still Christmas eve, but i give everyone an early Christmas wish first. MERRY CHRISTMAS !

I guess, my 2009 Christmas may not be the nice one. Because i'm not really in a good mood on the Christmas eve, well, maybe something that i predicted previously is gonna happen soon. I will try my best to enjoy it also, anyhow, life still go on. *Cheer!

I'm packing my stuff and prepared for my family trip. I mentioned before that i will not celebrate Christmas in KL. I'm leaving tomorrow. Happy, and looking forward. Leaving for 4 days, and hopefully i can have the chance to update my blog, so that it won't be dead. I want sun bath ! Let's make me tanned ! I wanna scream out loudly ! well, friends, not because of you all, it's some other thing. Don't worry. :-)

Just enjoy the trip and don't think about anything. Enjoy !

We shouldn't live with hope, sometimes hope will only disappoint you. Life without hope would be better because there's no disappointment. Agree? For me, i guess, Yes.

Listening to Lady Gaga's Paparazzi, i just love this song so much nowadays.
" i'm you biggest fan i'll follow you until you love me"..

I can see something start change in me...keep it up !
I miss you....but i guess..it's useless.

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23 of December, it's a big day to me. Nevertheless, it's also our big day. We're 6 months and still counting on. I don't know whether you realize that or not.

I'm sorry because i may not be a good girlfriend, but i'll try my best. I'm sorry because i'm not understanding, i always disturb you when you're busy. I'm sorry because i'm childish, always doing childish thingy. I'm sorry because i doubt you sometimes.

Thank you because loving me for this 6 months. Thank you for being my boy for this 6 months. Thank you for helping me when i need help. Thank you for teaching me this and that during my exam time.

You're the first one that i love so much.
No matter what you do, i will still love you.
It's our 6 months, may it last long....and forever.

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I'm 17 ! Yes ! I'm officially 17 ! Natalie growth !

Okay, first and foremost, i would like to say THANK YOU to all my friends and peoples who wish me Happy Birthday. No matter you wish me through phone, facebook or my blog, i still wanna say thank you to you guys ! Really appreciate your wish. Thanks a lot ! And to all my friends who celebrate with me, THANKS A LOT too. Love you guys !

This will be a memorable and unforgettable birthday to me, i get a lot of surprises from my friends. Thanks a lot !

Let the photo to tell the story...


this is from all of them. for me and Jiamin. Yummy!


this too . I love unagi !

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Changes needed in me. Being emo for few days, and i think, it's time for me to change.
There's another 24 hours to my birthday, my 17 birthday. I'm officially 17 after 24 hours, i'm not a small kid anymore, i'm not a kid that always need Daddy and Mommy to make things out. I'm not 16, 15, 14 anymore. I growth.

I wanna change myself, i don't want the old Natalie, and i want a new Natalie. I need changes, from bad to good, from good to excellent. I want to be the best.
As you know, changes is not something that can happen in a short period of time, it take some times. I'm not sure how long it can take, but three months later, you will see a different me, a different Natalie.

Why people wanna change, is because they wanna be better than before, this is why people need to change. I do wanna be better than before, everyone wish to go higher.

I don't wanna be childish anymore, i want maturity. There're some aspect in me which is needed to be change. First, from the outside. I should have change my own style a bit, be a bit of fashionable, and i have to discover my own style.
Secondly, the internal. My attitude, my thinking, or my mind, should have a little bit of changes. I'm quite confident in my own thinking, i can determine what is right and what is wrong, i will keep this in me. I don't think the way of me thinking is wrong. The same goes with my mind, i admitted that i'm mature minded, the way i used to be is totally different with many of my friends. I don't think this bring harm to me, so i will keep it. My attitude, is where it's matter. Yes, i should have change my attitude. If you know me well, you should know my attitude, people who know me best must be my parents, i'm quite stubborn sometimes, i'm quite emotion, i'm resistant when i really don't like something. And i'm not patient. This all bad attitude, i have to change.

Make yourself special and be who you really are. This is important, and remember live for yourself and not for others. Never ever try to harm people, be kind to others and be kind to yourself, you will see a different world.

I believe, the 17 me, will be slightly different from the 16's.

I don't want to feel depress of anything or obsess with something anymore. Let's make a better life, start a new life. My 17 life will be definitely different from the past.

I found out that, confident is very important in life. Like me, i'm not confident at all, i always doubt my own work, i'm just so no confident to myself. Because i'm not smart, and i'm a coward. People without confident is always at the back. Now, i have to built the confident in me, and stop being a coward. Be brave to face the truth or problems, no more hiding. Be tough !
Be elegant and charming.
Keep going and no turning back. Going back only for memories, no regret.
Don't make regret in life. Life should be happy after all.

Let the light shine on me, bright future.
Stand up when you fall, don't give up easily. Keep going and don't stop until you succeed.

Come on, let's say YES with me ! SAY YES !
(someone ask me to write this, a good spirit!)

A different me.

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