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FairyLand Tuesday, August 31, 2010
 shouldn't be here at 3:18 AMYes, look at the title, you know, i shouldn't be here, then where should i ? I SHOULD BE IN FRONT OF THE DESK AND EYES ON THE NOTES! i'm NOT, obviously. Here i come to keep you update again. =) Well, tomorrow will be a BIG BIG day, FINAL exam finally HERE! wooootsss! not looking forward. nah.. the mood gone. Stressful! )); I only think of my holiday, how nice. AWESOME moment. BUT, i also keep on reminding myself that, EXAM COME BEFORE HOLIDAY, and HOLIDAY COME AFTER EXAM. :s First paper, Critical Thinking. i forgot what's that all about. HOW HOW HOW? T.T and, ya know, insomnia is a good friend of mine, it visit me everyday! so sweet =.=" Slept at 4 in the morning everyday, waking up late, mood gone. Done with the timetable thingy which got me on nerve! Ha! Thanks to Sue Ann for helping me on Management. =) consider nice la, and I'm FREE on Wednesday. ;p  Shane Filan Shane yo!! Westlife MAN!! All the best kay, i just wish to pass all. =) and for sure, will do my best! ;D you apologize no matter who was wrong xoxo Labels: mission failed Saturday, August 28, 2010
today was a fairytale at 4:24 AMToday was great! Mommy wake me up early in the morning 'cause i have to meet up with my babes at 9am, so i get up and prepare myself. And yea, wore my new shorts! =) aleh, i don't look good today, wasted that shorts la. SO SAD. ); but i kinda happy to see my babes! ;D I'M FAT AND ROUND ))))));
First we headed to Steven's Corner to have breakfast. chit chat.. talk talk talk, our favourite. =x  Nat_Jing (ignore my fat and round face) );  Then, headed to our HR''s new house, neh.. the red/orange shirt guy is my ex HR. then, headed to my house, 'cause My babe was saying that she miss my Sisters and my Mom =D  Me and my Sook yee (notice my new short) ;D  Jia min and Nellie, I  Dai lou Kent! =) They fancy Nellie la, i'm abandoned. ); happy to see them. It's been a long time since i saw them, am soooo happy! ;)) and my HR too, i remember we used to have dinner together sometimes after work. =) He's a funny guy. ;DD  Taecyeon <3> =D Gonna meet them again SOOOOOONNNNN! Labels: i miss them Wednesday, August 25, 2010
random crap at 12:47 AMOkay, was wanting to criticize someone with my bloggie on the way home, but then when i reach home and munched on the yummy Subway's burger, and tweeted about that fag, I DON'T HAVE THE FEEL TO CRITICIZE that FELLA IN MY BLOG ANYMORE! it'll only pollute my blog, i guess. ;p Final final final, everyone are busy and worry with it, but what about me? ngek ngek ngek, doesn't seems to be worrying. I'M VERY BERRY WORRY KAY? can't you feel it? Muahaha! Got all my coursework marks this morning, WAH!!! some make me happy some make me sad. WANNA KNOW ? hehe. to stranger, i'll let you see. To my babes, of course, LET'S SEE! -- -- -- NAH, I'M NOT SHOWING! NEH NEH NEH BU ;PP! Final, gonna do better! TO BREAK EVERYONE'S SPECS!  Hyung Jun ah!!!!! ;D got to go. study, bye bye. and yea! to the people who are sitting for final or whatever exams, GOOD LUCK ! Labels: what a crap Sunday, August 22, 2010
for nothing at 9:28 AMI'm here again, and now is 0028, morning! Monday, another black Monday. Have to admit, i hate Monday. Final exams starts next week, and i'm not prepare yet! NOT ANY! superb right? people may feel happy if they see this. Am gonna die in final although am already half dying now. All quizzes, test and assignment, not doing well. Especially Maths and Account. DEAD! I'm a last minute people. Always do things last minute. Will stop talking about those nonsense that i've mentioned before. I don't have the mood to study, why? No idea. EDITED.jpg) with Nellie's bolster ;p Can i like, surprise those people who look down on me in Final? ;D Hope so! Your specs gonna break break! ;p  GODFREY!! ;) From now on, imma upload one or two photos of some haaaawtttt guy in every post. ;DD People, will you like it? hehe..<3> Labels: i'll make you a fall Friday, August 20, 2010
20th of August at 8:01 AMI'll remember today, 20th of August, the day that i see you again. Yes, i saw you, but i guess, you didn't notice me. today was a fairytale =) Looking at you is like going back to the past. You never change, still that skinny. The feeling is still the same, never fade. Heart pound fast, can't believe my eyes, but that's true, you're just in front of me, but i'm coward enough til i don't even dare to walk to the front. i miss you Labels: i miss you changes that i build at 6:56 AMTalk about changes, yes, i did change, not from bad to good, but from good to bad or even worst. I don't know what to say, guilt and sorry. I myself realize that, i've turn bad. To everything, everyone. I know this is what i shouldn't do, but why will i do? i really have no idea. I should be more mature. Am so sorry to daddy and mommy.  I promise, i'll give you all back the good good Natalie. =) Labels: imma good good girl Thursday, August 19, 2010
will i be okay after i blast everything out? at 7:21 AMWas on phone with my babe Sook Yee this two days, kinda long time didn't call her. I miss the time during high school, i used to call her almost everyday. =) Miss her voice as well. We talked about so many things, was happy. Just now, called her and i cried. Just can't resist, the tears keep rolling down, and i can't even talk. She keep on talking to me to cheer me up, Thanks babe. =) Wonder why i cry? Told her that i'm useless. .jpg) my effort still not enough Talk about humiliation, i've never been humiliate by anyone before i enter University. Neither family nor friends did that to me. Never. But after i enter university, it happen almost everyday. I've been humiliated by peoples almost everyday. Now i know how it feels, not a good feeling. Wonder did i fight back? Honestly speaking, i remain silent. Why? Because when peoples are smarter than you, the only thing that you can do is shut up. Wonder how will daddy react if i tell him his daughter has been humiliated by people in university almost everyday. I think, it's time for me to get all this. Give and take. Experience. .jpg) feel shame Thanks to my babes Sukyie Loh, Pui Jing, Yuh Wen and Amanda Kuek for cheering me up in facebook. =) Yes, like they said, should keep fighting! *will be right beside me* =) Eyes pain, due to crying. But, i do feel better after i cried. *Why this girl always cry la? * 'Cause i'm easy to get crying. ;) end here. Labels: give and take Sunday, August 15, 2010
awakening at 1:02 AMRead a great blog and it really make me awake! But, still it's a tough task.  there are stories behind a smile Trying on everything. Been thinking while reading, what people does, and what i did. Situation might be different, but still looking at the same angle, though mine is not that bad. People awake and so i am ? NO. Obviously, i'm still in that situation where i still think about the past, still half diving. I'm searching, searching for turning point, for U-Turn. I'm begging, begging for chances, begging for miracle. I'm asking, asking for things that's not belongs to me. Now i ask myself, is that worth for me to search and beg? I change, change to be so Not me. I avoid from people who like me, i act so Not me in front of everyone. Hypocrite it called. Go on. Labels: imma hypocrite Saturday, August 14, 2010
stay calm and dont go mad at 12:29 PMit's 0330 now, 30 minutes more to 0400. Let me finish this in 30 minutes then gonna hit the sack. what's on my mind now? Am gonna tell and ya, Don't go mad! stay calm! don't shout! LOL  sexy right? Told ya! will turn so wild when you see him! I love him so so much! he's the first model that i really love at first sight! few years back saw him on a tv show, then started to keep an eye on him. ;p  my type! My type, my type! LIKE HIM! <3  love at first sight He's Godfrey. My lover! Am gonna buy his new release book which is all about him and filled with all his photo! Ain't gonna share him with anyone! hehehe.. ;] and he's the type that i like. Still having Godfrey's fever! Ha, gonna hit the sack! meet Godfrey in dream! xD Labels: all about Godfrey Saturday, August 7, 2010
bestir oneself at 8:10 AMHad a great dinner just now. And i found out one thing that inspired me! Am gonna work hard for it! Am gonna make his dream come true. Dad, i love you! ;) .jpg) So proud! ;) Actually, think wisely, i should be happy with what i'm having now. As a science student before, i've nothing in my mind about accounts and economics, but i'm now studying for it, and knowing some of it already, should i be proud? Maybe, YES, i should be! Putting more effort on those subjects that i'm not so good in. Working! Stop the blame, and get working! Like what Yeong Shen said, 'instead of blaming yourself, why not get yourself started to work for final?" Right! You're right! And, Sue Ann, you wait! For sure, we'll rent house together next year! We'll be together! ;) I won't resit ! ;) NO LOSER! Labels: get started Friday, August 6, 2010
memories at 7:45 AMIt just happened like I'd pressed the rewind button. Was all of a sudden, think of you. All the things about me and you, were on my mind. Thoughts and feelings. Honestly speaking, to forget the one that you love, really hard. Time flies, it's been 6 months. It's been a while since you and i talk, how are you? *smile sarcastically* this seems to be a silly question, i shouldn't ask this question, but, beside this, what can i say? I've no idea. edited.jpg) I miss you, i miss your smiles, your eyes, your voice, your smells, your touch, your hand, your everything. Are you happy? Are you happy in this period of time? I'm not happy, pretend to be happy is hard. It's a tough task for me. Until now, i'll still think of those things that we did together. Maybe, to forget someone, is really hard. Or, maybe, you've already get used to it. You might feel happier than before. I smile whenever i think of you! Think from the beginning of our relationship, think about the precious time that we spend together, the laughters, the jokes, until the day it ends. I miss it! I want to go back! .jpg) I wanted to go back to that day, when we both walking on the street, if i can turn back the time, i'll hold your hand tightly. I'll not care about the stupid self-pride anymore, i won't care about the restrain, or any other thing! I'll hold your hand tightly! And if i do so, maybe things won't happen, maybe we will still be we. Can we be together again? Because, i'm not happy. Not at all. I should be more selfish, hold you tight and don't let you go. I should ! I really miss you, we deserve chances. Give us another chance, not only me, but you. We both. Thank you for loving me in the past, but i'm still loving you. Come back to me? These are all the things that i want to tell you, but it just can't be told. Labels: i will keep all these in my heart Sunday, August 1, 2010
what's wrong with me? at 9:00 AMIt's 00:00 now, i should be sleeping, but not! i'm here blogging. Am having a very weird feeling, but i don't know what feeling is that! Incomplete, lost, blur, nothingness, emptiness... what's that? Am superb down now! who can i talk to? really weird! what can i do? ); Can somebody tell me what's happening? can i cry now? I don't feel it. Can i smile? No, not that. then, what? Seriously, i hate this feeling very very much! Bordered me! what the hell is this! ish! *this will be a crap post, you may ignore it* ); ); )= Labels: crapping |
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