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2010 wish at 11:35 PM

It's 2010, do you realize that time pass super fast ? Yea, it is. Today is 1/1/2010. The very first day of 2010, shall we make a wish on the very special day ? Put this aside first, okay. Let me talk about my new year eve, 30/12/2009. Th very last day of the year 2009, well. I bet some of you went out to celebrate or count down, and it's totally fun ! But for me, no, i did not go out to celebrate and for your information, i celebrate at home, counting down at home and do my own thing at home, but...i still had fun ! This new year eve is a great day for me. My day is fully occupied by 'you', Westlife, Robert Pattinson and Eclipse, my very new story book.

Labels: wishes

happy 2010 at 10:49 PM

Labels: family trip

Leaving at 6:43 AM

Merry Christmas everyone. Still Christmas eve, but i give everyone an early Christmas wish first. MERRY CHRISTMAS !

I guess, my 2009 Christmas may not be the nice one. Because i'm not really in a good mood on the Christmas eve, well, maybe something that i predicted previously is gonna happen soon. I will try my best to enjoy it also, anyhow, life still go on. *Cheer!

I'm packing my stuff and prepared for my family trip. I mentioned before that i will not celebrate Christmas in KL. I'm leaving tomorrow. Happy, and looking forward. Leaving for 4 days, and hopefully i can have the chance to update my blog, so that it won't be dead. I want sun bath ! Let's make me tanned ! I wanna scream out loudly ! well, friends, not because of you all, it's some other thing. Don't worry. :-)

Just enjoy the trip and don't think about anything. Enjoy !

We shouldn't live with hope, sometimes hope will only disappoint you. Life without hope would be better because there's no disappointment. Agree? For me, i guess, Yes.

Listening to Lady Gaga's Paparazzi, i just love this song so much nowadays.
" i'm you biggest fan i'll follow you until you love me"..

I can see something start change in me...keep it up !
I miss you....but i guess..it's useless.

Labels: do miss me

6 months at 9:16 AM

23 of December, it's a big day to me. Nevertheless, it's also our big day. We're 6 months and still counting on. I don't know whether you realize that or not.

I'm sorry because i may not be a good girlfriend, but i'll try my best. I'm sorry because i'm not understanding, i always disturb you when you're busy. I'm sorry because i'm childish, always doing childish thingy. I'm sorry because i doubt you sometimes.

Thank you because loving me for this 6 months. Thank you for being my boy for this 6 months. Thank you for helping me when i need help. Thank you for teaching me this and that during my exam time.

You're the first one that i love so much.
No matter what you do, i will still love you.
It's our 6 months, may it last long....and forever.

Labels: 6 months

My 17 birthday at 6:01 AM

I'm 17 ! Yes ! I'm officially 17 ! Natalie growth !

Okay, first and foremost, i would like to say THANK YOU to all my friends and peoples who wish me Happy Birthday. No matter you wish me through phone, facebook or my blog, i still wanna say thank you to you guys ! Really appreciate your wish. Thanks a lot ! And to all my friends who celebrate with me, THANKS A LOT too. Love you guys !

This will be a memorable and unforgettable birthday to me, i get a lot of surprises from my friends. Thanks a lot !

Let the photo to tell the story...


this is from all of them. for me and Jiamin. Yummy!


this too . I love unagi !

Labels: THANK YOU

changes needed in me at 6:17 AM

Changes needed in me. Being emo for few days, and i think, it's time for me to change.
There's another 24 hours to my birthday, my 17 birthday. I'm officially 17 after 24 hours, i'm not a small kid anymore, i'm not a kid that always need Daddy and Mommy to make things out. I'm not 16, 15, 14 anymore. I growth.

I wanna change myself, i don't want the old Natalie, and i want a new Natalie. I need changes, from bad to good, from good to excellent. I want to be the best.
As you know, changes is not something that can happen in a short period of time, it take some times. I'm not sure how long it can take, but three months later, you will see a different me, a different Natalie.

Why people wanna change, is because they wanna be better than before, this is why people need to change. I do wanna be better than before, everyone wish to go higher.

I don't wanna be childish anymore, i want maturity. There're some aspect in me which is needed to be change. First, from the outside. I should have change my own style a bit, be a bit of fashionable, and i have to discover my own style.
Secondly, the internal. My attitude, my thinking, or my mind, should have a little bit of changes. I'm quite confident in my own thinking, i can determine what is right and what is wrong, i will keep this in me. I don't think the way of me thinking is wrong. The same goes with my mind, i admitted that i'm mature minded, the way i used to be is totally different with many of my friends. I don't think this bring harm to me, so i will keep it. My attitude, is where it's matter. Yes, i should have change my attitude. If you know me well, you should know my attitude, people who know me best must be my parents, i'm quite stubborn sometimes, i'm quite emotion, i'm resistant when i really don't like something. And i'm not patient. This all bad attitude, i have to change.

Make yourself special and be who you really are. This is important, and remember live for yourself and not for others. Never ever try to harm people, be kind to others and be kind to yourself, you will see a different world.

I believe, the 17 me, will be slightly different from the 16's.

I don't want to feel depress of anything or obsess with something anymore. Let's make a better life, start a new life. My 17 life will be definitely different from the past.

I found out that, confident is very important in life. Like me, i'm not confident at all, i always doubt my own work, i'm just so no confident to myself. Because i'm not smart, and i'm a coward. People without confident is always at the back. Now, i have to built the confident in me, and stop being a coward. Be brave to face the truth or problems, no more hiding. Be tough !
Be elegant and charming.
Keep going and no turning back. Going back only for memories, no regret.
Don't make regret in life. Life should be happy after all.

Let the light shine on me, bright future.
Stand up when you fall, don't give up easily. Keep going and don't stop until you succeed.

Come on, let's say YES with me ! SAY YES !
(someone ask me to write this, a good spirit!)

A different me.

Labels: be who you really are

mushroom head at 12:52 AM

Call me mushroom ! hmm...i just had a haircut, and i not really like it, maybe let it grow longer will be better. I look like a mushroom ! so, call me mushroom ! ^^miss my hair so much.

Just bored. Nothing much i can say.

Went to education fair at Midvalley with Sukyie. Not bad, is a nice fair. I guess, many people get something over there, but me, no. I still don't know which course to choose. It's hard. Okay, daddy disagree me to choose hotel management. What am i going to do ? hmm...Bryan is going to do A-level in January. I'm a bit envy because he doesn't need to think so much and he know what he want. What about me ? Natalie Kock, Natalie Kock, you better think about it, you have no more time. Aunt told me that too. Having a tough time. How i wish Daddy can decide everything for me ? but...this is my future, got to think by myself. Find out what's my interest first, this is important.

Few more days to Christmas, hope to enjoy it til the maximum before i go to Sabah. Tehee~and for your information, i will be celebrating my Chinese New Year in Sabah, since i'm going there for National Service. If there's no last minutes changes, i'm not coming back. I'll stay at my Aunt place and celebrate with them. I guess, my ang pao will be lesser than last year. So sad...

Enjoy !

xx ' I'm too shy to ask, i'm too proud to lose, but sooner or later i got to choose ' xx

Labels: irritate

night at 5:45 AM

It's now 2237 at night, i'm blogging. I've been doing nothing in the afternoon and just playing with my lappy. I feel like i'm wasting my time, and doing nothing. Some of my friends already had a job and they're working. Me?..like a piggy staying at home, do nothing. I enjoy my life but yet i'm wasting my time too. Scold me baby! Can i have something usefull to do instead of doing nothing ?
I know what can i do to with my time instead of wasting it. As i mentioned before that i want to learn some other language, i guess, now is the time for me to do this. I wanna learn French !
I found this. http://www.frenchspanishonline.com/beginnersfrench/freefrench.html
Hehe..now i sit in front of my lappy doing usefull thing ! Hurray ! Not wasting my time anymore. Actually, i think before that i wanna learn some other language in my college time, but instead of waiting, i do it now and so maybe in future when i really take the course that time, i already know some. So, i can be better than the others. ^^

Au Revoir. ^^ (good bye in French)

Labels: french

beautiful romance at 11:48 PM

What a hot day ! I've being emo for the whole afternoon, don't know why, maybe is the hot weather make me pissed off! Went back to school just to return all my text book, and guess what? I'm the last people to return it, and when i reach only left with two of my Indian friends. Then, we help teacher to take those stacks of book to the SPBT room. This will be the last time i help teacher doing things.

These days, I'm been drunked by those romantic dramas that i watch at home, and those romantic pictures and stuff. Aww! Keep day dreaming about it. ^^ but i know this kind of romantic thingy won't happen on me, so just keep day dreaming. I wonder how people can be so romantic, they can really do anything to their love one, feeling envy to the girl. xLOVEx

At last, my aunt reached KL and now they are on the way to Penang. They're there to look for a house for my cousin Fiona, who is coming back to study from Ireland. And soon they will coming back to KL to register for my cousin Bryan, who is same age with me in KDU. He will be studying in KDU next year.
I'm still thinking what to study. Hmm...
Just talked to Mommy, and we were joking around saying that if later on when my aunt is back to KL, my uncle sure will ask me about further study. And mommy said if i tell my uncle that i don't want to have further study, sure i will get scold. You know why? He is very sensitive on this thing, STUDY. Never ever say you don't wanna study anymore in front of him. Sure will get scold. Still remember once, Daddy told him that one of his friend's son don't want to continue his master anymore, then suddenly, my uncle look very angry and beat the table and ask " Why don't want to continue ?! " After my Dad explain, and explain, only he calm. Cute right? He's very strict to his children, but the way he use is very good. I love him much. Like my Dad.

Really bored at home, nothing to do. Always sit in front of my lappy and play, chit-chat, music...another day coming, what am i going to do ?
Another day, wasted.

Labels: bored day

what wrong with bald at 11:37 PM

What a bored afternoon, so i'm here to blog. All guys who're going to NS must read this. 'What's wrong with bald?' I guess, many of you will be sad because you're selected for the National Service, and you guys have be bald. Some of my male friend were shouting and yelling about it. They just don't wanna be bald. Don't worry, you might change your mind after looking at the photo below.

before.....................................after (balded)

Look, he still look handsome after balded. Nice right ? So, you guys don't have to worry much about it. Though you don't like, but is just for a moment. 3 months, pass very fast.
Many people are bald, like him, Wu Chun. And, my dear is also bald, he still look handsome with it. ^^
Don't worry, be happy.

Labels: nothing wrong with it

the dream when i was small at 5:12 AM

Oh my ! I'm so gonna update today. I've been doing nothing right now, life after SPM is quite a fool to me. Without aim, no where, just like i'm loss in the jungle. xD

I'm a fool ! ^^

Currently, missing someone badly.

I'm happy because i just downloaded Westlife's new album 'Where We Are' to my lappy, and it's playing almost everyday ! Love it ! xD

" As love is my witness i swear, i'll be with you til the end, nothing can tear this love apart.."
aww! what a beautiful lyircs...

Christmas is just around the corner, i want a Christmas party ! I just can't wait for Christmas to come, since it's the day that i love the most. Don't you think that Christmas is a kind of romantic day ? I do think so. I love to enjoy the night. Still remember that, when i was small, i always ask Daddy and Mommy, will Santa Claus really come to our house and give me a present ? I do believe the existence of Santa Claus. ^^ Just like every kid do. I guess, i'm the only one in the family who will put socks on the bed. tehee :) and because of this, every year, my birthday present will be hanging on my bed. Every time when i woke up, i will see my birthday present. I'm glad that i'm born on 23 of December. Just so near to Christmas, and Daddy on the Christmas eve.
As the Christmas song is playing...the day is coming.." Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle all the way.."

So yea, this time i will be celebrating Christmas in another state. How will it be? Really can't wait for it. But no matter how, i will make sure that me, myself is enjoying my lovely day !


My decision at 6:47 AM

Something is irritating me, i wish i don't need to think about it. But, the fact is, i can't run away from this problem. It's about my future, if i run away from this, who is going to do for me ? No one. Even Daddy can't.

First, which course am i going to choose for futher study? Second, am i going there immediately ?
I really have no idea. The most irritating is that which course to choose. I really have no idea. I don't have any Account's basic, if i choose Art, sure will suffer. Science, yes, i'm from Science class, but..i'm not interest to be doctor or anyting that have link with Science.

Second one, i decided already. Okay, i'm not going there immediately. I'll stay here for the first year, then only i continue the course over there. I'll do my foundation in KL. This can save more money, i still have two little sister coming up, save the money for them just in case that they need it.
The second one is finally settle. Now left with the first one and also the most important and irritating one. What to do ? anyone can give me some idea?

I'm loss ! no where.

Just don't think about it first, i still have time to think about it. Now just relax, like what the doctor say..relax your mind, don't pressure yourself.

miss you like crazy...

Labels: relax

tagged by wai peng at 1:36 AM

Games rules....paste at ur blog n tag 10 ppl....u hv to answer it as i tag u..if not u wont be happy o..=(

Ur BIG fat name: Natalie

Wat does ur fren call u : Natalie/ yoke leng

B'day: 23rd December

who tag u this: wai peng

best fren : everyone

what u wish for ur b'day present: anything

what are d happy things happen this while: SPM ended

what r d stress u face this while: health

ambition: dunno =.=

any crush: yea ! currently crushed on Robert Pattinson

will u invite ur teacher to join gathering: why not?

go out wif who will make u happy: Friends

wat will u do if u argue wif ur best fren: apology

where do u wish to go wif ur bf/gf: anywhere, as long as with him

what will u do during christmas: happy thing

who do u wish to celebrate christmas together: dinner

how many siblings: 1 elder sister and two little sister

favourite song (girls): wo ai ta-ding dang

favourite song (boys): All westlife’s song !

favourite colour: white, pink, black

do u flush water after using: yea

love guy or girl: everyone

what u wan to say out loud: Aww !

dare to go toilet at midnight: ya..why not? As long as it’s not at Genting.

wish to punch who: non

what do u obess now: NEW MOON

do u look horrible during sleeping: no..

wat time is it: 1714

hate the person who tag u: no

weight: secret

weather: sunny

got pregnant: no.

wat will u do when u r sad: silent. Don’t talk

wat will u do when u go to university: study and make friends

if u can add a colour on rainbow, wat will it be: pink

do u believe love can last forever: dunno, but as long as their heart is loyal to each other, I guess yes.

wat colour shirt ar u wearing now: orange

is it hard to let go off 1 person: yes !

ur mood now: sleepy

favourite things: currently, my favourite is NEW MOON.

TAG~
Puijing
Cassandra
Penny
Sue jane
Grace


first day after spm at 7:27 AM

So yea, as i mentioned earlier, i'm going to watch NEW MOON today. Nice movie ! Love it! But, this time, Robert Pattinson's scene is much more lesser than the previous chapter, Twilight. This is one bad of it. I give a 8/10. Vampire love story, love it ! xD

Will Bella marry Edward ? Keep an eye on it, the next one will be ECLIPSE. I'll get you.

Really enjoying today, had our movie at Pavillion, since the movie start at 3:10pm. So, before that, we went to Redbox Plus to have a singing session. Such a long time didn't go karaoke with friends. Today, i have it ! The first time i been there, nice ! We pay to have fun and make noise, so i sing like a mad ! lol...I really don't care about anything. Out of rythm, or any other thing, i sing as loud as i want, as loud as i like ! It's fun ! Enjoy is the priority ! What a great time..

Having great time with you guys. Let's make it again! We won't be able to have fun like what we having right now, appreciate. Will miss you guys lot !

So, that's my day. How's yours? Having fun too ?

Labels: memories..

weirdness at 7:53 AM

I'm wondering what's happening to me actually? Spm is over, isn't that i shall feel happy for it ? But, why am i sitting there like a mad and totally emo? What is happening? This feeling is weird.

Hot?

I want to have fun tomorrow ! Enjoy until the max !

Labels: random

Natalie return at 3:44 AM

Labels: full of enjoyment