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changes needed in me at 6:17 AM

Changes needed in me. Being emo for few days, and i think, it's time for me to change.
There's another 24 hours to my birthday, my 17 birthday. I'm officially 17 after 24 hours, i'm not a small kid anymore, i'm not a kid that always need Daddy and Mommy to make things out. I'm not 16, 15, 14 anymore. I growth.

I wanna change myself, i don't want the old Natalie, and i want a new Natalie. I need changes, from bad to good, from good to excellent. I want to be the best.
As you know, changes is not something that can happen in a short period of time, it take some times. I'm not sure how long it can take, but three months later, you will see a different me, a different Natalie.

Why people wanna change, is because they wanna be better than before, this is why people need to change. I do wanna be better than before, everyone wish to go higher.

I don't wanna be childish anymore, i want maturity. There're some aspect in me which is needed to be change. First, from the outside. I should have change my own style a bit, be a bit of fashionable, and i have to discover my own style.
Secondly, the internal. My attitude, my thinking, or my mind, should have a little bit of changes. I'm quite confident in my own thinking, i can determine what is right and what is wrong, i will keep this in me. I don't think the way of me thinking is wrong. The same goes with my mind, i admitted that i'm mature minded, the way i used to be is totally different with many of my friends. I don't think this bring harm to me, so i will keep it. My attitude, is where it's matter. Yes, i should have change my attitude. If you know me well, you should know my attitude, people who know me best must be my parents, i'm quite stubborn sometimes, i'm quite emotion, i'm resistant when i really don't like something. And i'm not patient. This all bad attitude, i have to change.

Make yourself special and be who you really are. This is important, and remember live for yourself and not for others. Never ever try to harm people, be kind to others and be kind to yourself, you will see a different world.

I believe, the 17 me, will be slightly different from the 16's.

I don't want to feel depress of anything or obsess with something anymore. Let's make a better life, start a new life. My 17 life will be definitely different from the past.

I found out that, confident is very important in life. Like me, i'm not confident at all, i always doubt my own work, i'm just so no confident to myself. Because i'm not smart, and i'm a coward. People without confident is always at the back. Now, i have to built the confident in me, and stop being a coward. Be brave to face the truth or problems, no more hiding. Be tough !
Be elegant and charming.
Keep going and no turning back. Going back only for memories, no regret.
Don't make regret in life. Life should be happy after all.

Let the light shine on me, bright future.
Stand up when you fall, don't give up easily. Keep going and don't stop until you succeed.

Come on, let's say YES with me ! SAY YES !
(someone ask me to write this, a good spirit!)

A different me.

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